havent blogged for the new year
well i noe its a bit too late but anywayz...happy new year
especially to my dearest blog here
haha

thinking of blogging away my new year resolutions but hesitated out of fear that they might turn out to be mere words and i decided to just set my goals mentally and put them into immediate action. most of my new year wishes for this year are born out to sorta offset my failures. so to keep the story short for the past two weeks ive had it pretty cool and under control at work. having successfully pointed out my weaknesses out of being ignorant, blurr, stubborn, immature and impatient and overcoming them for all the opposite traits. i have proven myself to be a much more mature and capable individual. i have to say im proud of myself. coz in the working world, as i have painfully learnt, if u are a poor performer everyone damns and doubts you but if you are able to portray a much more respectable attitude and flawless performance in your appointed tasks then ur colleagues and others would be pleased. basically its the bad points abt u they cant take and then they scorn at you but if ure like steady-pom-pee-pee like dat basically everyone wd shut up and that would be the chance you grab to shine...agree? dont agree or got sthg to say? tag...

yeah it does sound like ive gone thru alot of shit all by myself at work. but i gotta straighten out my own shit in the end dont i? nobody else can do anything abt it except myself. i could just get depressed but my baby Hazril was there (although not physically there) to lift me up, while i hide all my shit from my family coz i dont want them to think that im weak and incapable of dealing with shit. but im a strong and self-motivated person. i can handle anything that comes before me. all i need is someone by my side to motivate me. i love you so much honey.

love love love...

i sayang my baby so much i dont ever want to be without him
but now for the time being im without him
he always leaves me
we only meet once a week
what a bummer rite...
patience honey...patience...
no matter what he's the only one for me
too bad im such a stubborn asshole =P

anyway Haz jz took off his braces on thursday and proudly mms-ed his new smile to me today. honey uve got such a soul-melting, gorgeous smile you know. he's not booking out this week coz he's going into the jungle for a week for field camp from tmr till friday next. thats almost like going thru confinement. we get separeated so often. one day when the time comes we would really deserve...time...sigh...

ok i promised my baby i wd sleep early today...he's probably already snoring away in his bunk rite now...sigh i miss my darling so much...indeed as the saying goes...absence makes the heart fonder....

good nite bloghoppers...tmr is a new day...